wondaboy says...

 Sometimes love often feels like a dream to me. Intangible and imaginative. In my past relationships and flings, I always fantasized what the man before me actually was to me and put them on too high of a pedestal. Craving him, nursing him, providing for him, as if we were married for 10+ years with 4 adopted kids, 2 dogs and a 3 level townhome. Whole time we've only been talking for a week. I know there are SO many people like me that see others through rose colored glasses, envisioning a picturesque romance filled with drama and passion after only 1-3 dates (I think after the second date I begin to fold). It could be due to a lack of attention or romantic affection as a youth, low self-esteem, unrealistic conceptions of love from others/media, trauma, or some other crippling cognitive distortion, but for me, I just simply wish to experience love. In a way I've never experienced before. I want the romances that I enter to grow bigger and stronger, with each passing one. I want...

For the past week, i've been digging it out with one of the biggest divas that ever existed to man...  Strep throat. Like she really mopped the fuck out of me. And my co-worker called it a disease for babies. Self-esteem tanked </3. She, Covidia, and Allerginia have been headlocking people and taking them down for weeks now, nasty queens. Everyone keep yourselves and loved ones safe, protected, and get vaccinated if you need to! These illnesses are still going around beating people up and hospitalizing folks, and I'm speaking up my testimony! Stay safe out there! Stoney <3

I'm just gonna out and say it: I don't believe gay men can find love with a guy they just hooked up with from an app. I'm sure a lot of people would disagree and give me the "love can find you at any moment" spiel, but just let me speak. Connecting with a man intending to only have sex with him, is not a foundation to build any sort of relationship. It's strictly lustful. There are so many stories of men falling in love with their Grindr hookup but why have your first impression of your partner be their body and not their mind or personality? I would be embarrassed to tell other people that I met my man on Sniffies like... what the hell? Be fucking for real. All that being said, if you did find your partner through hooking up and are in a strong loving relationship, then kudos to you. I don't have a problem with love growing from strange places, I just question if a relationship stemming from sex is sustainable. Noted by Stoney <3

Addiction is a bitch. My heart and prayers go out to everyone in the fight against it and to the loved ones of an addict. Neither of those positions are easy. Especially to my black LGBTQ+ addicts: you already have so much of the world against you while also battling your body and mind and that is severely easy. You probably have more strength in you than anyone has ever had. That should be commemorated. It should be Celebrated. Many of us know how drugs were introduced into lower socioeconomic and disenfranchised communities,  but in case you don't, blame our federal government. For intentionally instilling these substances into our communities so to make us sick, impotent, villainize us and kept under their heels. Being someone who has worked close to addicts, I'm aware of all the stigmas and antagonizing rhetoric spread around the disorder and disease of addiction. When you are at the mercy of substances, you will ultimately feel powerless. If you are an addict (of whatever...

So yesterday I went on a date with a man who I'd been talking to for a couple of weeks. We sit down for drinks and like an hour into the conversation, topic of our political views comes up and THEN he tells me... he's conservative. I was like "OMG, this is it. I'm on a date with a Trump supporter... and he's BLACK. What do I do now?" Now, I know that what some people would've just got up and walked off, but I didn't. I'll be honest and say that I gave the man the platform to say his peace even though I knew I'd end up rebutting every single point he had. But my question is... why?? How??? How can a black person be in support of the hateful actions being done in our country. I know the economy has been trashed by our government officials, past and present, but the wealthy only wish to become richer and keep the underling classes poor.  If you believe in that, why would you be in favor of Trump for any reason? It's always republicans saying t...

you can't reach your potential successes, if you are constantly operating in a state of fear. It's so easy to get swept up into the modern day challenges that our society enforces us to face. Affording our right and bodily need to shelter, eat and have fun. But we can not be discouraged. Black people we can not be discouraged!! POC we can not be discouraged!! LGBTQ+ people we can not be discouraged!!! We have to be able to choose love and believe that things will work out in the end. It's the only thing that will keep us motivated to move forward. The only way we can attract abundance. Much love Stoney <3

As I sit here doing my homework assignment, I routinely dart my eyes back and forth between my homework assignment and the iMessages app to see the red bubble go up an additional number to see if the text will be from a man I don't even know like that. It's a very discouraging feeling to hate being whipped because to be freshly in love is a beautiful thing. Alas, that hate is prominent in me right now because I can't stop thinking about him and we've only hung out once. Being what I could only assume to be this "obsessed".... is normally condemned by society. I'll prepare my own crucifixion thank you very much. This won't be the last time I talk about this, but finding love as a black gay man in one of the most sexually fluid cities in America is one of the greatest jokes ever told. I wanna be clear that it's certainly easy to find lustful experiences here in LA, but when it comes to romance it feels like it is something so revered that it's no...